Pablo Neruda’s work blows my mind. What a man! What a life he had. The title is his quote. I never forget when I first heard of him, I went to the library and whatever they had I borrowed and read everything I could about him.
Okay. Today is Wednesday and I don’t want to be here today. At work 2 hrs earlier, no mood for gym today, I got George Bush last night. What do I mean? Well I won’t call it Aunt, because if I had one I would love her. Won’t call it friend either, I tend to care and love my friends, so from this month on it is called Fucking George Bush time of the month. Or should I call it my personal Bush War? Since I am the one bleeding.
I miss morning sunrises. I love to stand at the train station, sipping on my coffee, watch the sun rise over the ocean. This morning I did get a treat though. Once in a while I am lucky to witness wild life trying to survive US. There are a couple of owls, that come by the train station once in a while and I have been lucky to have seen them 3 times already. A gorgeous male and female. They are Great Horned Owl (Bubo virginianus)
Length: 21” Wingspan: 45”. It has the most varied diet of any owl species ranging from crayfish to young fox and is very vocal. The logo for the Connecticut Audubon Society is a great horned owl. In case you didn’t know.
I took pictures of them with my phone, but as you all know my cell sucks. I have pictures of parrots eating on the ground, a seagull, a snake (I buried), and owls. Amazing. I tell you. I wish they came and hung around my house, we have many mice, so they would have a fiesta.
I also want to talk to you about a movie called August Rush. I watched the movie at work, for 2 days on my lunch time. An all familiar story with a twist of fairy tale beliefs. I knew once I watched it that I HAVE to get the soundtrack. Let me tell you, it is soo rare for me to buy cd’s, I think in the last 10 yrs if I bought for myself 3 cd’s I will exaggerate. I bought K.D. Lang and this soundtrack cd. I can not wait to research the individual performers on this cd and get more knowledgeable with their work: Kaki King and Mark Mancina. Jonathan Rhys Meyers sang 4 songs. Not bad, actually.
So why is this hitting close? Mom is adopted, so we have no idea who is our biological grandparents. It doesn’t bother me that much, mom is really affected. I wish I could have enough money so I can hire a detective and find her family. So my friend Rabbit called and mom was watching the movie, as usual mom can’t handle cordless yet alone cell, so the whole conversation was recorded on my answering machine. She was in tears, she could not even talk, Rabbit was ..like I am not sure what to say but tell Katie I called..lol
Either way the movie has touched me also, to the point that I couldn’t wait one moment more and had to buy the cd at all costs, now all I listen in the car is that collection of music. The range goes from classical to church to rock to pop….amazing. I recommend the movie, as a nice heart touching story.
Taxes, The MAN, they all can suck my plastic strapped on dick. They are slapping me with taxes on my junk car, like crazy.
I bought my first tie alone, 3 actually…..fine..you got me..Terry the sales guy picked them I just paid for it. I took pictures of my shirts, before taking them to the cleaner and he picked them. Technically did buy them without another woman present. So I am proud of that. Can I just tell you how much I love putting on my crisp, ironed clean shirts…too bad I can’t wear the ties at work. Sigh… I look good in them and I feel awesome with crisp necks and …just feels good.
Lately I have been dreaming about smoking a lot. I miss it. I miss it a lot. In my dreams, I love to inhale. Addiction….haunting me. I tell you if this cancer won’t go away I start again. I don’t have anything to loose anyway.
I would love to do a survey at the bowling alley, and find out how do these ladies and gents help out in regards to our rights. I am just …disgusted with the lack of support, that’s all.
I am tired to fall for people who can’t love me.
I have two friends with the same birthday Kat and Virginia. Thank God I had the opportunity to hang out with them and spend time with these two amazing ladies and their partners. (psst. I got to wear my ties and dress up). My date was gorgeous as ever at the formal blk & wht party. Hmm… sweet quiet night.
Ok I take the 7:08AM train from Bridgeport to Westport, almost every morning, before hitting the Westport/Norwalk line, we pass by a shit plant. Yeah, I know it is gross, not to me though. I never noticed something until now. Those one of life saving donuts. Now here in my mind, barely awake I start laughing my ass off pretty loud and all I can think about if one of them would fall into the shit and saved by one of those donuts… I guess ‘Having a shitty day!” literally would mean that.
Ok. I think my midlife crisis is kicking in bad. I also understand that maybe I am only meant to be a friend to everybody, nothing else. A friend on a need you when I want you friend. It just seems that all through my life, up till this point and not talking about this exact moment, in general past and present it has been this way. My fault is when I need to talk to someone; I don’t know how to reach out. Eh! I am used to it. Not even sure why it bothers me, I guess.
So! If you want a friend, Here I am.
Love my haircut. I look cute.
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I am single. I am ok. I am a Great friend. So what can I do for you?
I do have a question though.
If you knew you were going to die soon, would you allow yourself to love?
Or to be loved?
Is it fair to you and the other person?
Closing with some awesome quotes.
“I don't love you as if you were a rose of salt, topaz
or arrow of carnations that propagate fire:
I love you as one loves certain dark things,
secretly, between the shadow and the soul.”
“I want to do to you what spring does with the cherry trees.”
Pablo N
“I thank you God for this most amazing day, for the leaping greenly spirits of trees, and for the blue dream of sky and for everything which is natural, which is infinite, which is yes. “
e. e. Cummings
